A few nights ago, I was at the beach. A wonderful evening with a very dear friend. But the strange thing was, although I was super happy to be there, I felt so weird and mixed up at the same time.

Afterwards I looked closely at the sunset photo (above) taken that same evening. Why did I feel so weird and messy? I saw the straight lines on it and I wished for straight lines in life. But in myself and in life, I cannot find any straight lines. And while I wished for them, at the same time I felt straight lines would be so boring. I was already looking for what would be new around the corner and annoyed there was only a straight line! So I wished for new and excitement. And I saw the beauty of the colours together but I couldn’t see where one colour ended and the other started. I felt the peacefulness of the place and the photo, but at the same time I couldn’t find that in my body. I was not sure where to start, how to make myself feel better.

And then I realised I was forgetting to allow to feel my emotions. I was so busy in my head with worry about things in the future and longing for memories to relive. I forgot to focus on what I was feeling right there and then and now!

While I was seeing my thoughts and feeling my body and my emotions, I also realised I am none of those.

I can view all of those happening in myself, but it is not who I am. The only thing I seem to be is an observer of these things or an observer of myself. Realising this, gave me lots of breathing space. It helped me to let go of the seriousness you can sometimes feel when overwhelmed with thoughts or emotions.

I look at the photo again and I see the peaceful sea. I see the peaceful evening. I see the best friend in the world. I see the excitement in all the new adventures. And I see the promise of a new sunrise, I see the promise of life. O, I suddenly love it all!! I am looking at the photo in wonderment. I am all of it together and at the same time none of it, as I can quietly observe all of it in myself. I want to hold the world, I feel so excited!